Saturday, September 25, 2010

argh... so many projects... so many tests...D: and then exams coming up... in a mth's time D:
sianzzz... can't update for a while... until i get less stressed. Amazingly, the more stressed I get, the less work I do D:

All the best for the tests and projects~

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

heys everyone:)

Math test today... half screwed it up... ah well... its in the past now, we did all that we could do, and that's that. Whether I just passed or failed, I don't care. At least its over~~ later get results that time then start panicking... Physics... test screwed up. FML. still nothing I can do. No matter how much I can kill myself for it, the mark won't change, right? Just have to study more...
Biology. Attempted to study for quiz, and in the end... just crapped up some answers sometimes. Fairly easy... if I had studied enough.
Da Vinci was probably the only thing that was ok today. Got some fishing string from Hansel (thx!!!!) and WH, NTZ and I fixed up some parts of the whole thing. Hopefully it won't just fall apart tmr.
haha over the past few days... got a lot of comments. just trying to keep them to myself, i guess...

I gave you the benefit of the doubt. After all, knowing me for so long, you should understand me more than others. Yet you don't. I thought you knew me. You don't. After all this time... you didn't scratch the surface. I gave you hints. You didn't take them. I tried to tell you nicely. I guess you didn't hear me, or just pretended not to. Long time friends indeed... at least all my eggs aren't in your basket. If not you'd be dead by now.

Broken trust is hard to rebuild. Broken friendships will be hard to renew.

Friday, September 17, 2010

こんばんわみんなさん!! Half doing my hw, half slacking, 100% wondering. If only the answers lay right before me... and I could read minds...

Chemistry today was awesome xD Periodic table FTW~~ So many weird weird things that can come out of just some random periods and groups...:) But the mindmap was kinda fail... IMO. So... I'm hoping to do one myself:)

IH I thought I forgot to bring notes again>.< dm is a great teacher...:) No eye contact, hands behind his back, "vomiting out" all the things he memorised, to quote Mr Lee. Ex-el teacher:) I will have a lot to comment when there is the module survey again!

Mentoring Ms Ng used the period to check the Math Files... just like primary school, they never use the time wisely... just doing stuff for their own subjects. At least we could just do wtv we liked:)

Then aft lunch... nth to do but slack xD Went up to the com lab to help Ryan with the EL stuff. (sorry Ryan... din print correctly the first time...) Watched MJ and Yong Jie play DF for quite a while... and just commented until Keith came>. Damn cheem terms...leukocytes, antigens... bleah. But at least we had a start:) haha played Murderer again in the class with Zack's pokemon cards:) I escaped as the murderer twice in a row xD

Soccer was so fail today. On the way to NUS field to have soccer there... and then on the bus received a phone call from Eunice, telling me that the training's in school!! ARRGH.... So then Sarah and I came back to sch... changed into our soccer boots... and Eliza told us that dun needa change. FML. Blame me lorh... being so rush... wasted quite alot of time. Played Captain's ball with headers xD Awesome game:D

Meanwhile, NUS High was owning ACS big time:) 2-0... until we let in a goal. Could have been saved, I think. But what was done cannot be changed... So by the end of the first half, 2-1 to NUS High :DD

Took EW home, and now officially starting hw. Tai Zhi, Matthew, Ren Sheng: I'll have the EL ready by tmr, and send it to you guys. Anyone who has RS's email can give me? thx:)

~Lisa


The problem not forgotten, the past not forgiven. And another has arisen. I don't know what you're saying, and I don't know who you're saying it to. Regardless... I think I'm the one... and I'm Eternally Sorry. Sorry for everything that I've done, the person I've become. Promised to keep that away, but I failed. And I panicked. Sorry.
The concern is exploding, I don't know how much longer I can bear it for. Living like this, sensing the weariness that consumes, worrying till the end of time...

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

hi:)

haha I'm updating when I should be sleeping... XD lalalala~

Can't sleep now... dunno why... just feel so awake:)

Today... epic day. First, had physics. The Physics lesson rocks!! Did an experiment to find CG, and then to balance an ice cream stick on our finger~~ damn fun can? Then the horrible part... before the ice cream stick, we had to do assignment 8... damn lah... during the test, my mind went blank >.< until Mrs Oon said "class, you have 2 minutes left." Then suddenly... *CLICK* my mind worked again O.O Stupid mind... At least I just finished the paper:) Physics test: I got 22 marks. No other comments. Don't ask me for my score again.

Math... Ms Ng wasn't here!! Not that it wasn't bad lah... we skipped the class exercise (woots!!!) and didn't have file check... Sigh. So i signed my file in a rush this morning... or rather yesterday morning... for nothing. How nice. Some MO teacher came in to relieve. BEST RELIEVE TEACHER EVER XD I listen to mp3 while doing work...:D

ACE lesson was on Integrity. Sigh. Like we don't know about honesty... then go ask us to put down some feelings on that sub. I know I hate putting down feelings for this crap. So... whatever the teacher wants to hear, I write it down. Simple as that.

Ms Woo oso never come today... So today damn slack :D:D Left us with some worksheets that she asked us to print out ourselves... waste of my ink and time. Sheesh. Anyway... Madhu and I went up to com lab to do our chem assignment. Ryan, Yong Jie, Rittik and Keith were there... and Zenry was playing catching. How nice.

DV, shall not comment. Sigh. I'm screwed.

The train back home was the most epic journey I've ever sat on for the EW line. Keith asked us to wait for him... so we waited for 15 mins. Bus came. So we left him at school. Then he spam called me... damn lah... so we waited for him outside Buona. Btw, Zenry came with us ON THE BUS RIDE. OMG>.<" and then... FOLLOWED US ON THE TRAIN TOO... Journey was damn messed up.
Ok. So, firstly, we piled on the train at Buona. At the last moment, when the doors were closing, Anders ran out. So at Commonwealth, we got off and waited for him. He came on the next train, and we went in. If I'm not a blur sotong right now, and got my facts right, at the last minute, we ran out, and this time RYAN forgot to get out, and continued on the train... So then, after a dilemma, we just got on the next train, with Zenry following us again. Joined up with Ryan, and then finally Zenry left at Tiong Bahru. So we just continued the journey as normal... Tai Zhi, Weiheng and Matthew left at Raffles Place... I promised Madhu accompany her till Eunos, where I had to leave her...:( to save her from being the only girl:D And because of so many other reasons...
Yeah... so just took a bus home from there... long bus trip zzz... and got home finally:D what a great way to spend my day...

sigh. 1 am liao... and I'm still wide awake as ever... something keeping me awake? I dunno. Someone keeping me awake? I dun think so. So glad that Hansel is still up... and can chat:) Hansel you're AWESOME~~

better rest asap... if i can... See you ppl tmr!
-LISA


I can't help but to just worry about you... wishing desperately that I can help in a way... to make it better for you...but I don't know how to... Torn apart, dealing with my own pains, my own confusion. If only an invisible way out would appear.... and I can just escape from this dark maze, into the warm sunshine...

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all......
TDG, Pain

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

heys ppl~
Just a reminder, if you haven't checked the class blog today, pls go check. and click the link i gave. thx:)
anyway... might as well write about today... SIGH. chinese work inside folder. IH work inside folder. Both folders AT HOME. fail... And EL... I hope that I can pass the next test... I didn't know it was next week!!! gosh... I seem to have lost it... the writing... just can't write now...:(:(
Took EW line further than raffles place today!!!:D the scenery so nice... though it takes wayyy long to go home... so i shall not take it so often:(
One thing that really cheered me up today: JARYL SENT ME TWO JAPANESE SONGS~~~
OMG colors of the heart and again rock!!!! THX JARYL!!!:D
Realised a lot today... things that I've never thought of before. gosh I'm so blind sometimes>.<


I trusted you with everything. Poured out my soul to you. Now I know better.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Back to school...

heys ppl~

hais... holidays over liao... go back to school. First day ok lah... haven't seen everyone for so long... so glad to see them again:D Mr Selva got damn serious for el... says needa chiong this sem:( well, mostly they just re-teach stuff we alr know... what's the point? the el program kinda sucks...

Math: start new chapter. Coordinate Geometry:D Confusing, yet awesome XD

Mentoring: change seating arrangement... no comments on it.... except that it was so random indeed -.- hope everyone likes their new seats:) why do i just attract bad luck to me all the time? FML

Then netball~ only run 5 round around court:D then court work... I still sucked... played center for the first time!!! i might have screwed things up a bit... did push-ups on the nb court cos no shot. (Anyone who might be reading this, you want a challenge, go to the nb court and do 20 push ups slowly. AT 3PM WHEN SUN SHINING xD)
SIGH. Wanted to go out dinner wif the guys and carilynne... but dinner cooked liao so cannot >.< size="2">






Instead of finding the light, I ended up at crossroads again, both paths darker than before. Can't forgive myself this time... I saw it coming, and yet did nothing, just stand there and let it approach silently... Well, doesn't matter which path I take, does it? Either way, I'll just be stuck again, in the never-ending maze that I walked into...


Saturday, September 11, 2010

OMG Three Days Grace FTW~ :D:D
Their songs damn awesome can?
*Never too late*
*World so cold*
*Break*

Friday, September 10, 2010

I'm learning the guitar:D:D
well, learning from online, and using my brother's guitar, but still!!! and its so damn fun:) hurts my fingers like siao though:(

1 day 11h 18min
gosh this hols has been really great! relaxed, slept late(how come i cannot do that during sch term T.T)!! Caught up with old friends, strengthened existing friendships, and made new ones:D

wish every holiday could be like this:)

-Lisa


All the more confused, all the more misguided. But the pathway is ending soon, and be it a good end or bad, I will face it. No choice right? Or is there one, which I'm not seeing?
heys~
Holidays coming to an end soon...:( time passes so fast, and we don't even notice.
holidays rather normal, except for the wonderful get-togethers!
So soon... the next term... looking forward to it a little:)
2 days 7 hours 18 minutes left

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

hi:)

yesterday was epic fun:D thx a bunch to david, who organised and got the tickets for us!

In the morning, I was panicking on how to get to bk panjang lrt, because i've never taken to there before. So i just took a (not so) random bus, and changed to another totally new one( which i've never taken before) brought me right to bk panjang:)

Waited for Zack and Ethan to arrive, then took 75 to great world city. Only then did I find out I was travelling in circles... Damn I could have saved like 1/2 hr if I went directly... D:

Watched INCEPTION. Great movie. freakin long though... went back to David's house arguing all the way about the ending, and the beginning. the cliffhanger at the end was awesome!! The guy was like still stuck in a dream... wow...

then went to David's house. Pin Yee, Madhu and MJ tried to do DV project there, but gave up(after they went shopping for stuff)

the guys cooked for the bbq! food is awesome xD went around laughing and chatting, and playing. some kids on bicycles nearly bumped into us repeatedly.

Train ride home, those on EW line were doing sudoku:D sudoku FTW!! they solved it in less than 10 mins o.0


today, got a little flu:(... so din go netball. attempted to do english project at home instead, after finishing the episodes of The Mentalist that Hansel gave me:D Mentalist FTW:D gosh Jane is so insane... but he gets the job done! (In weird, unorthodox ways...)

English was a failure today. After changing my storyline time and again, I still haven't finished it yet... and i'm planning to change the storyline again
SIGH... well back to work!
All the best with the hol hw guys!

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Things are never what they seem.
Numb. Confused.
Feeling as though my life is always at crossroads, never moving forward. Getting more tired each day. Why can't I just be myself anymore? I'm not the person I used to be. I don't know who I am anymore.


Tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, stuck under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me, and be less like you
-Numb by Linkin Park

Friday, September 3, 2010

heys everyone! how're y'all doing?

September hols coming!!Can't wait for the rest we all finally get! One term of studies passes so fast... before I know it, its gone alr. 1 1/4 years more to spend with this wonderful class ): and 1 1/4 yrs more before Hansel graduates...): SIGH. Sometimes I wish that time would pass slower... allow us more things to do... more time to spend together before we separate...
Are we changing in seating arrangements next term? I'm neutral about it, but I'd rather stay in the current one for certain reasons. Guess whatever you want, but I'm never telling. Maybe you'd be right, maybe you'd never even scratch the surface.

So... Sept hols... anyone going for the movies? Weiheng's sponsoring one tmr, but its at a horrible timing... David's organising one on tuesday... but have to pay. SIGH. If a lot of ppl are going, I dun mind going at all. Saturday's one I got stuff on though, so sadly I can't make it ):

Today's chem open book assignment today was... surprisingly easy! Since its an open book assignment, I would think that it's gonna be hard, way hard. Only needed chapter 6 and 9 notes:D but I'm VERY DISAPPOINTED with myself. One of the questions, gotta put down the formula. Sadly, I put the words instead. FAIL D: sigh... why am i so stupid?? why can't I just do things right for once?

First time playing table tennis today:D Zack, Madhu, Valerie and I went 4th floor to play. Either Delvin and Carilynne joined us at the 4th.(hope I'm right. gosh, my memory's failing me once again...)
Weiheng joined us after a while.

For the first time in my life, I held a paddle correctly, and attempted to play table tennis.
Feeling very accomplished! Madhu and Valerie also tried, and (in my opinion) were better than me. I'm noob at table tennis... Played against all of them, and Zack was damn pro, owning me big time:) Owning the rest too, except maybe Delvin.Carilynne can play pretty well! I didn't know she played it... Hoping to play more and get better at it:)


CM1302! Damn nice lesson today! Did paper and TLC chromatography for M&M choc coating:) the TLC paper damn nice can? Got silica layer, and protected by plastic on one side. Very fragile... but the color which came out looked awesome. more... shiny...

Then we prepared alcohol! using yeast, glucose, and other stuff, all mix together in water of a certain temperature. I had to leave early for soccer, so had to leave the end to Madhu. Sorry Madhu...... hope I didn't leave you to do too much...

Soccer today was at RJC, friendly match. Zack and Hansel, if you think RI is big, you haven't seen RJC. Twice the size of our whole school compound, I should guess. Got 7/11 ministore, macs(somewhere in the whole building), even ATM machine o.0 random much? Who puts an ATM machine in a school?? And I even saw some RJ girl withdrawing cash from it -.-
That school is damn rich. Why can't they donate some money to a needy school like us?
Not only rich, but big too. The whole soccer team actually got lost around that place 0.0

Finally match started, after warm-ups and stuff. I didn't play, cos my leg was aching a bit for some reason, and yr 1s don't play. Guess its good in a way, cos I think I still suck in soccer, and would pull the team down. So I sat there and watched. While drinking FREE 100 plus ^.^
The other (teacher? coach?) is so kind... gave us a styrofoam box full of cold 100 plus to drink. And told us to bring some back, just to finish it :D WOW.
In the end, bad news: we lost D: good news: lost 1-0! at least only difference of 1 point...

Hoping that tmr would be a decent day. And that I get to sleep in a little:)

Happy September hols:D
~Lisa


Open your eyes and look, 'cos things are never what they seem.